I was thinking about my ex a little while ago, about how Im lucky to not have a huge grudge against her or anything like that. We just kind of split up and went are separate ways... when i got thinking. We didnt just split up, she just kind of stopped treating me like her boyfriend. And not even just, at the time, i didnt notice. I was very upset and hurt. I kept asking why she didnt want to be with me, and she would say she needed time. So i gave her time. And when i asked her again, she would say the same thing, and she said she would eventually want to talk to me.
And there lies the problem... I was in about grade 11 at the time, and we were only together for that year. So for the rest of high school i was friend-zoned. And dont get me wrong. I enjoyed hanging out with her and her fiends (who, really became my close friends as well), i had a great time all though high school. But with that said, we never needed up talking about what happened.
I was awkward, and said things i didnt understand, and we never kissed. I cared a lot about her. Even if i didnt show it. I dont need to know why she didnt want to be with me, i know why.
But i never heard it from her, and its eating me alive.